I Still Love Him BUT...

We are actually going four months on Wednesday, but as my friends say, "Why prolong the agony?". Really, my almost four months relationship with him is the happiest and also the saddest four months of my life...

I can still remember how he cares for me, how he gets worried when I get to hurt myself accidentally. I can still remember the nights when all we do is just stare up at the moonlit sky while holding each others hands. All the sweetest things we did together are still fresh in my mind.

But lately, everything changed. The man I used to love change into that insensitive boy who continues to hurt my heart. Yes, my heart is bleeding and is so wounded. I really cannot believe that the man who used to take care of my heart is the same man who would break it into pieces.

Lies... Lies... And all lies... He told his friends that his "in a relationship" status in Facebook is a big joke. It hurts me because he said that if his friends will ask me, he would admit our relationship. I was also so hurt whenever he tells me lies, one over the other. I HATE GUYS WHO TELL LIES.

I don't want to cry every night anymore. I hate to be treated this way. I need to make a way out, on my own.

I love him more than I love myself... But I honestly think that I don't deserve to be treated this way. I must let you go now. Just remember, I still love you so much, but, I deserve to be happy. ON MY OWN. Gotta walk this Earth solo.