Delaying Tactics please?

It's already Thursday... And I am still confused, undecided and all... It's like I don't want that day to come. That day will end all my agonies but it will be also the end of my hopes. I may appear okay but I still love him. It never changed from the first day that I said "I love you too" until now. I don't know when will my heart give up loving him, and when will I love again. I don't know... I guess I would NEVER like to love anyone again. If I will love again, can it be just him again? I am so willing to wait. Pathetic? No. I'm just a woman who loves a guy so much more than I loved myself. I guess, even after that day, there will be more restless nights for me...